If there is one thing that I can share with you this Holiday Season that has made a huge difference for me in dealing with my family and loved ones is really understanding the extent to which I have been driven by the desire to be HEARD, ACKNOWLEDGED, and LOVED.

And if I am honest with myself , it really comes down to the fact that I’m an acknowledgment junkie at heart.  Just about everything that I do or say is rooted in this existential narcissistic need.  It is this need that has me, do the right thing, show up on time, smile at the right moments, say certain things, not say other things, accomplish great tasks, achieve levels of success and on and on.  On the flip side it also the need that is responsible for me feeling “not good enough,” less than, and at other times has had me become passive aggressive, angry, and shut down.

I’ve actually distinguished 2 characters that have emerged in this dynamic… “Shasheen the Great” and “Shasheen the Horrible.”  I’m either feeling the love or not, and in both instances the places that it takes me don’t really serve me at all.  Somewhere in there is Shasheen. (More on that in another post) Each one of these characters are highly sensitive and show up in response to the feedback that I get from my environment.  Its pretty amazing to watch.  The pendulum can swing from one end to another by sometimes the simplest comment, gesture, or lack thereof.  That’s what’s going on the inside. 🙂

On the outside I’ve developed strategies to keep the expression of these personalities in check.  But man it’s a lot of work and I’ve done a lot of work, read a lot of books and taken a lot of seminars that have told me that its an inside job and how I need to be the source of my own satisfaction, love, and acknowledgment.  While I continue to move in that direction, being around loved ones and especially family can immediately turn me into a narcissistic needy and sensitive little child if I’m not careful. Its truly amazing!

One of the things that I’m most grateful for this year is that as a coach, consultant, and my work in the Pink Elephant Project, I’ve had the privileged of being let into so many lives and so many situations which have provided such an incredible reflective mirror for me to see for myself how the dynamic that I have experienced has been playing out in the lives of others.  And from the seat that I sit in, I’m here to report back that you that I’m not alone and if any of this resonates with you, you’re not alone either.While its great to have this awareness, the real freedom for me has come from stepping out of my own narcissistic needs and recognizing that:

EVERYONE around me is in their own version of this conversation –

What that says to me is that at any given moment, what I’m needing from a conversation and interaction is exactly what the other person is needing as well. It really makes things kind of crazy when you think about it…all of us needy souls running around LOOKING to others for the same thing that others are LOOKING for from us.  On the other hand, when I keep this in mind it does give me great insight and provides me with an incredible amount of compassion and understanding in the dynamics that unfold in those uncomfortable moments when dealing with family and loved ones.

The challenge that I’ve found for myself time after time is that when I don’t get what I want, I’m not willing to give what it is that the other wants. Or the other version is that I feel as if I’ve given over and over again and have not received anything in return.  It feels frustrating, disappointing and at some point I end up shutting down or lashing out.  It’s the good ole Fight or Flight response.  Its as if I play the game of being HEARD, ACKNOWLEDGED or LOVED as if it was some kind of Zero Sum game.  When I get honest with myself, in most cases everything I’ve been asking for is right there but I’m not hearing it or experiencing it because its not being delivered in a way that I want it to be delivered.

I heard once that as human beings we behave as if we are the directors of some incredible screen play and that we get frustrated and angry with the cast on a regular basis for not following their lines.  The problem is that in most of the cases we’ve never given the cast the script.  What I typically do is tell them what I don’t want rather than what I do want or how I want it. Interesting, huh? What I have found is that if I can keep this dynamic in mind I can really approach all of my interactions with the ones I love with a much greater compassion and understanding and avoid getting tripped by the triggers that have been set off in the past.

The question that I have for myself that I will pose to you: During this Holdiay, knowing that all it IS that your family and loved ones want…. is to be HEARD, ACKNOWLEDGED, and LOVED….who will you be able to provide that for and who are you unwilling to provide that for. The bonus question: For those whom you are unwilling to do that with… WHY? Is it because you don’t feel HEARD, ACKNOWLEDGED and LOVED by them?

Hmmmmmm….? Processing that one right now… 🙂

And don’t be shy…bring the Pink Elephant Promise with you, read it again, and share it with the loved ones in your life. You have a vested interest in strengthening those relationships as do they. The holidays may not be the appropriate time to have some conversations but by Observing what’s going on in your head, being responsible for your interpretations of your experience, and setting the stage with the Pink Elephant Promise my hope is that you are able to take your relationship with the loved ones in your life to the next level.

As I continue to do the work I look forward to sharing with you what it is that I’m learning. So grateful to all of you. Wishing you, your family and loved ones a beautiful and loving Holiday Season! So much to be Grateful for!

From the heart

Shasheen Shah

Would love to hear your thoughts and if so moved please feel free to repost!

  1. Anonymous 9 years ago

    This is the first occasion that I’ve read something of yours in this format. To be perfectly honest, the “Pink Elephant” image turned me off. Secondly, as much as I appreciate you, I think that, at the same time, I have also experienced you as a rival – because we are both “out there” so much, demanding attention. I applaud your commitment to being honest. You are a great fucking guy, and I look forward to learning more from you as time goes on. Cheers, Steve Miller

  2. Shasheen 9 years ago

    Love you brother! Thanks for checking in! I “believe in Steve” and have always been a big fan of you and Kath! Happy Thanksgiving!

  3. Jeff Cloud 9 years ago

    Shasheen, I really appreciate your honesty and willingness to spend the time to document your experiences and share ideas and solutions with others. It’s a gift and I’m sure that many will benefit from taking a closer look at how they “operate” and act around others and really “see” what is the driving force behind their words and actions. From the point of the “2nd attention” as don Miguel Ruiz calls it, you are able to view your thoughts and actions as if you are sitting in an abandoned theater watching the whole thing play out without becoming attached to a particular outcome. This allows you more clarity and the opportunity to choose LOVE in every situation. Happy Holidays to you and many blessings!

  4. Adriana 9 years ago

    Thank you for this honest, authentic and truthful message. Indeed you are a great messenger .

    Now a simple question for you, but don’t allow that voice in your head to answer the question. Just allow these words to go directly into your heart, where you can feel the meaning and intent behind the words. This is the question: What kind of messenger are you?

    What really matters is to be what you really are—to be authentic, to enjoy life, to be love. And not the symbol of love that humans have distorted, but real love—the feeling you can’t put into words, the love that is the result of being what you really are.

    Always remember, you are the force that’s creating everything in existence. You are the force that opens a flower and moves the clouds, and the earth, and the stars, and the galaxies. Whatever your message, love yourself anyway, because of what you are.

    thank you for being.

  5. Ed Howes 9 years ago

    Thanks for sharing Shasheen. I only recently discovered a very powerful haling tool I would love to share here. The Quantum K slide show can take about 4 minutes to load and one can read the text below while waiting. I believe it is well worth the wait. See if you do not agree.


  6. Shasheen 9 years ago

    Thanks Ed! And yes I love the Quantum K…its kind of a spyware check that I run on myself every so often! 🙂

  7. Jonathan 9 years ago

    well put and well articulated. my takeaway: what we seek is what we need to start giving more of, knowing that we’re not giving it away, but rather amplifying in others and therefore in us. Happy thanksgiving brother. I love you I love you I love you.
    Whatever has brought us together is for a higher and nobler cause.
    I appreciate you for showing up in my life.

  8. Shasheen 9 years ago

    So eloquently put Jonathan…its the Twitter version of the post LOL! Perfect! Love you to my brother…feeling very loved acknowledged and heard 🙂 Thanks!

  9. Pattra 9 years ago

    Just today, I was thinking and talking with a friend about some of the things you so succinctly wrote about… and I couldn’t find the words I was searching for and then I came home and turned on the computer only to see you have written out what I was trying to talk about. Thank you for giving me some of the words I was looking for and adding some insight & clarity to my thoughts.

  10. Anonymous 9 years ago

    Absolutely spot on Shasheen. Very provacative questions you shared here. I’m finding that I am definitely seeking in others what they seek from me, and I have been reluctant to give some of what they want in order to avoid deeper levels of intimacy that could ultimately mean getting hurt.

    Love you bunches! This is going to be a great holiday season!


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